Friday, 2 December 2011

That was the day that was....

pretty shite, actually.

I found myself with several metaphorical knives in my back at work today. I'm going to be transferred from the project I work on because one or two people don't think I'm up to the task. To be fair, they don't think many people are up to the task. They have had it in for me since I started back in July.

They conveniently forget that I have come into an environment of utter mistrust and apprehension because of the reorganisations that are about to occur. People have, understandably in some cases, played cards so close to their chests that even they can't see them. They have seen me as a threat because I'm a consultant, and have therefore only drip-fed me information and left me in the dark many, many times. I've also come up against some Kafka-esque procedural problems with gaining access to computer systems that are pretty much essential to my function. Yeah, maybe I should have pushed people and asked questions, but when the atmosphere is so non-conducive and people only want to talk about the negatives, you get bored of trying and you get depressed.

I was looking to get away anyway, so it's not all bad. I guess I'm just a bit sore about the way I feel people have behaved. Two weeks ago I was being told I was doing a good job, even with everything that's happened in my personal life (surgery and family illness). Now I'm a pariah.

Oh well. I've bounced back from worse than this. I will bounce back again. It helps when you're a touch rotund, of course...

U2 - Acrobat
Don't believe what you hear
Don't believe what you see
If you just close your eyes
You can feel the enemy
When I first met you girl
You had fire in your soul
What happened your face
Of melting in snow
Now it looks like this

And you can swallow
Or you can spit
You can throw it up
Or choke on it
And you can dream
So dream out loud
You know that your time is coming 'round
So don't let the bastards grind you down

No, nothing makes sense
Nothing seems to fit
I know you'd hit out
If you only knew who to hit
And I'd join the movement
If there was one I could believe in
Yeah I'd break bread and wine
If there was a church I could receive in
'cause I need it now

To take a cup
To fill it up
To drink it slow
I can't let you go
I must be an acrobat
To talk like this
And act like that
And you can dream
So dream out loud
And don't let the bastards grind you down

Oh, it hurts baby
(What are we going to do now it's all been said)
(No new ideas in the house and every book has been read)

And I must be an acrobat
To talk like this
And act like that
And you can dream
So dream out loud
And you can find
Your own way out
You can build
And I can will
And you can call
I can't wait until
You can stash
And you can seize
In dreams begin
And I can love
And I can love
And I know that the tide is turning 'round
So don't let the bastards grind you down


Kate Spencer said...

Hi! I love your writing style! Your poetry is beautiful, no matter what the subject!

You absolutely MUST get yourself out of that unhealthy environment! It's not your skills that lack, or your intelligence, or your personality. It's those f*ckcreeps in your workplace!

You are meant for such better things, and I know that they're coming to you, soon!

You're a great writer, and a lot of fun!

I took the liberty of asking my Tarot cards what you have in store, and they say that you reorganize your priorities (send out resumes? Let it be known to other work places that you're available, or the opportunity is there, and you jump into it...) Anyway, very soon, your next job is more suited for your skills and personality, and you enjoy your next employment. Good news comes quickly in an email...

In the mean time, enjoy torturing them by being the great person you are! It must scare them that you're so good at what you do with the limited instructions they've given you! You get the last laugh in this one, that's for sure!

We've all had perfectly good jobs that were ruined by the crappy people who lurk the's NOT you! Just get ready to GET OUT OF THERE!

Happy New Year in advance!

Your new friend,


Taunted said...

You're a top bloke, always has been, you did wonders for me in Dubai. Don't let the bastards grind you down eh - and I love the poetry - U2 ;-)

littlejimmy said...

Thanks for your kind words, Kate. I appreciate it. The poetry is actually from a U2 song called "Acrobat", as spotted by Mr. Taunted. I should probably make a note of the source!